Switch FTW

Ha!

2009-05-28T14:10:15Z

That joke we played on your boyfriend was fucking funny.

The best part is that he's still oblivious.

I don't understand what the hell you just said, because you're drunk and Irish.

2009-05-23T14:56:49Z

So after last night, I guess you really aren't coming back.

Psht.

You took the easy way out, you punk. It was your fucking fault, so stop acting as if you're the one being victimised.

Where did all this anger appear from? Has it always been here?

2009-05-22T15:24:17Z

I ran out of citalopram about five days ago. Rather than scooting to the docs and begging for more like an obedient little addict, I'm testing myself. I wanted to see what difference it would make.

Apart from a small bit of nausea, I feel like I can finally think again. I feel like I'm back in force, and I'd rather go out and do stuff instead of having to sit and listen to your rose-tinted life.

Yeah, you. You wouldn't believe how angry you make me. Then again, you probably don't even notice how silly you look.

Grow up, kid. Life isn't supposed to be perfect. Just stop hurting people along the way.

You'll even hurt that cunt as soon as you find someone closer to that perfect image of *ahem* you all hold us again.

A message to Alan

2009-03-09T01:59:42Z

You are lost. Right now, you're sitting in bed reading articles that you aren't even taking in. You're avoiding sleep despite knowing that you have an impending class tomorrow at 9am. You don't feel anything when you think about that. No sick-in-my-throat-oh-shit-i-need-to-get-to-bed kind of wariness. Nothing.

For the past year and two months, you've been in a haze. Everything's flew by and you've stumbled along with your chin down, here unable to process it. You'll happily ignore everything until it's time to go home and sit on fucking digg.com/stumbleupon.

Well, fuck that.

GET YOUR FUCKING CUNT OUT OF BED TOMORROW AT SEVEN. FUCK SLEEPING IN LIKE A LAZY FUCKER. HAVE A COFFEE AND A CIGARETTE IF YOU REALLY FUCKING WANT. WHATEVER. JUST GO FUCKING WORK.

You know who you are better than anyone else. You're still there. You want to go be that cocky bastard again?

Go fucking earn it.

second year is over

2008-06-19T20:44:32Z

Well, it's been 10 weeks since I last updated. I've been meaning to get around to it. Honestly. I just really haven't been feeling up for it lately. I'll get around to it.

exams are over

second year is over

everything is changing and it's scary

...

2008-04-04T23:36:38Z

Jesus, Alan.

What the hell is wrong with you?

Come on. You're better than his.

too much PSP and not enough QTB?

2008-01-28T11:47:40Z

And so here I am, sitting in my QTB lecture. I'm out of breath because I ran the way here in fear of being late, and in the rush to leave my room I managed to leave behind all of my class work, including a copy of the weekly test that would have netted me a percentage towards my final grade. That 1.2% was my sole reason for getting up early this morning, so yeah, nice going, Alan!

Why am I even here? Four weeks in, and I've yet to teach myself anything about Quantitative Techniques for Business, so whilst it's mildly entertaining to watch my lecturer bark at every late-comer, it's not enough to warrant getting out of bed.

I doubt I'll learn anything today. The ~2 hours sleep in my body and the PSP in my pocket are just further proof of that.

Gah. Why can't I be motivated to study? I've so much work to do.. ;;

Urgh... continued...

2008-01-14T12:09:23Z

Okay. Something tells me alcohol isn't all that good for you. That dark rum must still be in my stomach, because I've been fighting the urge to be sick all morning.

The lack of sleep probably isn't helping either. Didn't get to bed until four this morning, and I'd barely slept by the time my 9:15 lecture rolled around.

Two classes later and I'm still dead-on-my-feet. I don't think I remember anything from either of them. I've vague recollections of seeing sigma signs, my QTB lecturer barking at some girl leaving the hall, as well as some mumblings in broken english about Government Debt. Meh.

Only Social Enterprise at 2:15 to go before I can finally go back to sleep...

*cry*

Urgh...

2008-01-13T09:18:20Z

I woke up this morning, and wondered where the hell I was.

I'm sure there are more ideal ways to start one's day than to realise that you abandoned your friend's birthday party, because you got so drunk that you managed to fall asleep whilst dropping off things in your room.

God, I'm such a ducking idiot.

...

2008-01-01T18:01:04Z

<3

Apparently, I've to stop worrying and just enjoy.

I'll try my best...

Slight Paranoia

2007-05-18T07:17:16Z

Meh. I've managed to convince myself that all my friends secretly despise me. It's might be just paranoia having it's way, but I can't help but wonder "Where they talking about me?" ever time I appear and the previously topic of conversation is hastily dropped. Cooome on.

Tell me whatever I did, and I'll work at fixing it. Please. I don't want to go back to being hated again. :(

Mental Note: "Buy a Metronome"

2007-05-12T21:04:24Z

Too much interesting stuff happens too quickly. So much so that I keep meaning to come back and write about it, but end up losing track of time. Then before I know it, I'm getting that nostalgic feeling of panic when I realise I only have four weeks of term left before summer. Not long now. >:]

Uh, so what's happened in the past 11(12?) days. Well, I finished my Economic Growth essay. Worst essay I've ever written. Finished it and submitted it. Couldn't be bothered doing any of the massive rewriting I usually subject anything I write to, so I'm predicting a grade in the 40-50% range. Ach well. It's over and done.

Handed it in at the coursework office the next day and found that they were clearing out books. Walked away with five random economics textbooks that'll probably sit in my cupboard until I throw them out. The next book I'll finish will probably be Harry Potter 7, not some 30 year old book on Urban Economics. Seriously, it's that old. One of my pals had a skim through it and a library receipt fell into her lap. Apparently it was checked out in September 1974, leaving me with the realisation that I had gained possession of an important piece of economic history, albeit one that now has a permanent home on the shelf above my belts.

Keeping on the subject of uni, our management group's going to pot and it's all my fault. I'm not a good leader, plain and simple. I'm too afraid of pissing people off, so I'm not being firm with some people, and just that fact alone is pissing people off. Bleh. It didn't help that I was a mess at our last meeting thanks to my new-found reliance on Diet Kick (a cheap 24p knockoff of Red Bull). All I got for fifty minutes was "Alan!" "Alan!" "Alan!" and all I was interested in was putting my head down and closing my eyes. I think all the Vitamin B12 went to my head. All 750%-of-my-RDA of it.

Sat my economics mid-term yesterday, and for once, I've been able to walk out of a midterm semi-confident that I did okay. Last year I only scraped a 6 (or was it 4?) out of 20, so I didn't have that much to beat this time around. Was in uni for 10:15, and sat in the library most of the day with my mates. Ended up giving up revision around 3 and just enjoyed the banter for the last wee while, much to the annoyance of the people who were actually studying.

I went to see Rise Against live for the second time on Monday night. After an hour-long storm around Glasgow during a fallout with Nicola, we made it to the QMU, which given that we're both Glasgow-n00bs, it was quite an achievement. The fact that we got a taxi there doesn't make it any less special. >:P
The concert is now ranked officially as the best gig I've been to. Never before have I had such a great time being kicked in the head and tossed around. I burst my lip, fell in the moshpit and sang (shouted off-key) until my sides hurt.

Pal took some sweet vids whilst I was jumping around <3

Give It All
Ready To Fall
State of the Union

I was also forwarded another video on Youtube. See the numpty clapping his hands off-key to the left? That's me. Haha.

Tour Song

All that adrenaline topped over to the next day, and I found myself getting another piercing. The top of my ear now hurts a lot. It sounded cool at the time, but I forgot about that whole six-weeks-to-heal factor. Daaaamn. Apparently it suits me, though. <3

Worked my usual shift today. Wasn't crap for a change. After spending an hour with one customer, and managing to get him to leave with 2 £100 suits for him and his brother, I spent the rest of the day doing the usual running-back-and-forth, and actually enjoyed it. Yet again, I blame the Diet Kick. :]

gogo caffeine

gogo dreamcast

2007-05-01T14:14:33Z

Haha. A lot of the stuff I got off eBay came in the post today.

I've a load of Dreamcast games now.

*showoff*

Too bad I'm not supposed to have any time to enjoy them all just yet. Damn uni.

Skies of Arcadia >>> Introductory Maths 3

2007-05-01T09:30:25Z

To anyone who asks what I’ve been up to these days, I’ll happily tell them,

“Yeah, I’ve been busy revising like mad.”

That’s pretty funny, considering that apart from the odd bit of reading and last week’s economic tutorial, I’ve did jack revision. I haven’t really gotten myself into the whole ‘REVISE-ALL-TERM!!!’ thing yet. There just always seems to be something far more interesting to do, like, uh, watching Doctor Who, going to some random concert, or spending my pay on eBay.

Meh. It’s alright, Alan. It’s only week three.

So yeah, last Thursday was when it was all happening. I got elected leader of my management group (GO ME!), then I went to see AFI at the Corn Exchange. T’was a pretty amazing performance. I’m sure a lot of people will agree with me when I say smaller venues like the CE and the Garage own larger places like the SECC. There’s nothing like it when there’s a smaller crowd and you can get about two feet from the stage. That paves the way for an intimate performance that you go home and tell your grandkids about, Uh, if you have any that is. :D

My only gripe about AFI was that the crowd was just too dull. At a gig, you need to leap about and have a good time. You can’t have a good time standing in the same spot for three hours with your camera or mobile in the air the whole time. Yeah, maybe the community of YouTube’ll thank you for your recording, but why pay all that money for a ticket if you aren’t going to bother enjoying yourselves? Jesus, no-one threw a punch until the last song, and the guy was steaming, so that doesn’t really count!

Pffffft. Today’s Tuesday and it’s kinda my day off. Kinda, because I’m really supposed to be at HWU for a Maths tutorial, but I haven’t been to maths since the first day of term. I’d rather sit at home, work hard and finish my essay about Economic Growth. Of course when I say that, I really mean ‘Play Skies of Arcadia on my Dreamcast’. Uh… didn’t I give up all gaming in favour of revision? Damn, I guess that didn’t really last.

I’m pretty sure that decision will be back to bite me come exam time. :/

It's official. I'm addicted to eBay.

2007-04-27T19:40:59Z

“Alan, put the PayPal account down and step away from the computer…”

Dammit. The fact that today is payday is no excuse, I’ve spent a little too much on eBay today. I almost died of a heart-attack a few minutes ago when I accidently bid £70 instead of 70p. Whoever invented the Bid Retraction Form, I LOVE YOU! There’s no way I was able to afford £140 for two old Dreamcast magazines. Pfft. I think it’s about time I call it quits. It’s so easy to spend money over the internet. It doesn’t feel real. No wonder so many people get addicted to online gambling. :/

I really should be revising... hm...

UPDATE (01/05/07):

Alright, that's it. No more. Stop spending money.

Since last week, I've managed to buy online...

'Heavy Metal' (DC Game) - £5
'Moho' (DC Game) - £10
'Gunbird 2' (DC Game) - £1.25
'Giga Wing' (DC Game) - £3
'Grandia 2' (DC Game) - £13
'Toy Commander' (DC Game) - £3
'Space Channel 5' (DC Game) - £3
'Unreal Tournament' (DC Game) - £2
'Riviera: The Promised Land' (GBA Game) - £10
A Green VMU for my Dreamcast (GREEN!! <333) - £4
Dreamcast SCART Cable - £2
A copy of the supportband at AFI's EP - £5

Not including postage costs, that comes to £61.25. Damn, and I'm supposed to be £400 down thanks to my car insurance too. :/

Switch’s Nine-Week Action Plan

2007-04-21T07:58:21Z

I promised myself I’d work even harder this term, so here it is; my revision plan for the next nine weeks. Yes, nine! Not ten. Usually we get ten week terms, but for some odd reason, this term is only nine weeks long, which means less time for messing around.

What I need to do (in order of importance):
- Do all the tutorial work needed for my I.E. and Finance workshops
- Read and rewrite my International Economics, Management, Maths and Finance notes
- Read the appropriate chapters in Lipsey & Crystal
- Work through the web-tests for management

In order to achieve this, I’m going to make use of every bit of spare time I have and either work away in HWU library, or at my desk with the comp turned off. :)

To limit my distractions, for the next nine weeks I’m giving up:
- Final Fantasy XI and all other PC games
- My Xbox360 and my Dreamcast
- Blackcats
- Playing pool at the Lecturn
- Late nights

I’ll have all summer to fanny around on video games. As far as I’m concerned, my degree is more important. I work far better in the mornings than I do in the evenings, so that means early nights for me. Unless, of course, I’ve got something unavoidable that needs doing. By which, I don’t mean gabbing away to people on MSN or looking up random stuff on YTMND.

Nyah!

Week One Workout

2007-04-19T07:32:59Z

I started back at Heriot Watt on Monday, for the final term of my first year. It was great to see everyone again; even though we’d only been off for four weeks.
I finally found out my exam marks too after weeks of anxious (Hah!) waiting. They could have been better, but they’re better than my first term marks by far. I promised myself I’d begin studying the first week of term this time around, and I plan on becoming a social-recluse and keeping to that promise. Oh, why did I buy an Xbox 360 over Easter?! It’s just going to sit un-used for the next 10 weeks. :/

Fell asleep in Maths on Day 1(nothing changed there; I’m always asleep in maths ^^;) and was lost in International Economics (also nothing changed) when our new lecturer, who just happens to be my mentor, rambled on at about 40 mile-an-hour. If all his lectures are like that, the next 10 weeks might have to consist entirely of home-revision. Woo.
Later on, I visited the accommodation office with Tommy to ask about university-leased flats for next year. It still hasn’t sunk in that I might be moving out. I’m still treating it as a laugh, but eventually I’m going to have to start worrying about how I’m supposed to afford it. Scary thoughts.

I’ve been doing a little bit of spending too since my loan came in on Friday. Took a jaunt through to Livi with Nicola for a wee shopping-spree, and then headed off to Glasgow Fort later on. Bought some t-shirts, belts, stuffed animals (< WTF?) and my new <333, wristbands. Due to my ‘problem’, I’m constantly cold, my lower arms getting hit the most. Wristbands are a godsend, keeping me somewhat warmer and all-the-while making my wrists look that little less grotesque. ^^

Finally, I went to see Lostprophets at the SECC last night, in the first of a load of concerts I’ve tickets to see this half of the year. I’ve never seen a queue for a concert so big. It was like, never-ending. The queue would edge along slowly, then we got to the door and though “Finally! Almost there!” Then we actually got a look in the door and saw that the line kept going. >.< Aiden and Taking Back Sunday supported them and I managed to get Wil Francis from Aiden’s autograph. Almost passed out just before LP’s set, but it was all good.

I'm still suffering from concert-deafness this morning, but here's hoping it'll be gone by 11:15. I don't want to be constantly screaming "WHAT!?" all the way through out first Management Project meeting.

Fauldhouse Welfare: Par Dwa

2007-04-16T06:44:14Z

Fauldhouse was alright-ish. Could have been far better, but it was still good none-the-less. Our new start didn't go, so yet again, I partied the night away with the women from my work. The welfare itself was dead and full of older folk. I was tipsy by 9, drunk by half-9, and blind by 10. XD

We then went off clubbing, and I was on Irn Bru the rest of the night. Left early and got home around 2. Got the munchies and made myself a quorn burger. Promptly puked it back up. Fell asleep around half 3 only to wake up at 7 the next day for work. I was a total zombie for the rest of the day and I'm pretty sure the customers all noticed.

Fauldhouse Welfare

2007-04-14T12:38:21Z

I've a night out tonight. First proper night out since Nicola's 18th in Febuary. It's at the famous Fauldhouse Miner's Welfare, which from what it sounds like, is 'all the rave with the young folk' thanks to it's cheap drink deals for most of night. I'm going out with my workmates, who consist of five women and our new start, a guy who's never been out with us before.

Whenever we've been out drinking before, I've always been the sole guy, and I've always felt out of place as a result. I would then proceed to get proper drunk in order to make the night a little more enjoyable. Hopefully with another guy to talk to, coupled with the possibility that there'll be a load of people I know from uni going too, tonight'll be fun.

I start work at 3, and I'm on until 6, which is apparently when we've supposed to get changed at lightning speed in order to catch a bus to welfare. I'm going to have to find some way of eating dinner in between that, since the chances of me finding something animal-free at the Welfare seems pretty low. That, and I can't handle alcohol when I'm staving. The state I was in at Nicola's party proved that fact. >.>;;

SNAAAAAKKKEEE~

2006-11-16T22:35:14Z

I am the most motivated person ever. Today, I've had something like 8 hours free time. Free time that could have been spent studying for my degree. I could have been revising tables for Financial Accounting, getting to grips with the concept of Perfect Competition for Microeconomics, or better yet, doing some maths homework. But no, I spent the night hopping between video games, and I didn't even enjoy myself. I just spent the time looking at the clock, waiting for time to pass and the night to be over. Blargh.

I'm seriously messed.

The Case of the Kickass Gaming Comp

2006-09-15T08:33:52Z

I bought a computer last night. £750 of my own hard-earned money, paying for a uber kickass gaming rig.

"AMD Athlonâ„¢ 64 X2 4200+ - Socket AM2
ASUS M2NPV-VM ,AM2,Geforce 6150+nForce 430,PCIe,1394,GbE- Micro ATX Mainboard
2048MB DDR2 533MHz Memory - (2x 1024MB)
300GB Serial ATA Hard Drive with 16MB Buffer
Super Format SONY 18x Dual Layer DVD Writer +R/-R/RW/RAM
512MB DDR2 nVIDIA GeForce 7300GS - TV out- DVI - PCI X (256Mb SMA)
19" Widescreen LCD TFT Display with Multi Media, DVI-D, 8ms - TS902W
5.1 Channel Surround Sound Audio-SoundMAX (on-board)"

*orgasms* *dies* *high-fives Jesus in heaven*

...I am such a geek.

In other news, my eyebrows have almost fully grown back after that little accident with the razor oh so many months ago. Celebrate. /o/ \o/ \o\

Summer needs to damn-well end already!

2006-09-14T22:17:21Z

Pfft. I hate days when I do nothing all day. You always end up feeling like crap at the end of it. All I did today was play video games. Puzzle Pirates, MovieBattles, Harvest Moon on my PSP, psht.

Don't get me wrong, I love video games. Somedays I love just sitting on my arse and playing all day. Today just wasn't one of 'em. I should have totally volunteered to work extra hours or something this week.

Ach well. One more week of boredom before Fresher's Week starts. Can't wait.